Sunday 26 June 2011

Lists.

I love lists.
I have some form of romantic obsession with them.
We had a big old white-board filled with places we wanted to visit.
We've been drawing up itineraries and lists of places we are going to go on our pit-stop tour of Japan.
So here is a quick up-date of what will be our hectic week travel plans (mainly concerning me and Cloudia, but I believe Michelle will be joining us for points too):

Tuesday:
Lunch time: Leaving ceremony
Afternoon: Leaving Party
Evening: 12 hour coach to Osaka 0_o

Wednesday:
Early Morning: Arrive in Osaka grumpy and shitty respectively.
Morning: sex-plore Osaka
Afternoon: go to Spa world (various onsen styles in one place plus swimming pool with slides for me :D)
Evening: check into hostel, see what night-life there is on offer.

Thursday:
Late Morning: check out of hostel.
Afternoon: go to aquarium :)
Evening: over-night coach to Tokyo 0_o

Friday:
Morning: Arrive at DISNEYLAND
Day: Go round DisneySea (after much discussion we think it looks better than Disneyland - bigger rides etc.)
Evening: Find hostel and see what's about nearby.

Saturday:
All day: Mystery tour - our plan involves going from Tokyo Tower to Harajuku and seeing what's on the way!

Sunday: undecided!

In conclusion: As you can see from this I am doing Japan in a whirlwind. I am coming home a month early for various reasons and so are doing an epic trip up the country and back down again.

x

Friday 24 June 2011

Dear Nana,

I know I'm meant to be in mourning for you right now. You will never know how sorry I am for not being able to. But I lost the person you were 4 years ago now and I think my grieving process started from that last time I saw you. Some instinct part of us may have recognised each other, but in reality we had no idea who the person was sat in front of us. And so I am so sorry I haven't cried bar the initial shock, but I am so far emotionally and physically removed I can't quite believe it's real.
I can't say anything as trite as 'I hope I will make you proud', because I have no idea what would do so. But I tell people that you raised me as a little girl, because the only few memories I seem to have kept from then are of you. So I'm sorry I can't cry and don't appear upset, I hope you understand I am thinking about you though and I am worrying about my mum, but I like to think you understand and know I am happy and that will make you proud.

This is what I want to update:
I am be in mourning but today served to reinforce the idea that Life is Beautiful. It's 32 degrees out here and today I actually had a paid job. Yes! I had a paid job in Japan. I can't describe how awesome that feels. I was judging a speech contest with a teacher and a nun (I love nuns by the way, all old nice people remind me of you and 'Nan'). But the best part was when I stood up to be introduced and over 500 people simultaneously went 'kawaii!' It was amazing and that all reminded me life was beautiful.
Tonight I'm going out drinking and dancing. I know that is not what I should be doing in the circumstances, but I don't think its an awful decision either. Life is for living and as there is nothing I can do at the moment I am going to keep having experiences I can tell you about.
I'm going to tell mum to send you some sweet-peas for me. If there not in season I will just ask her to give lots and lots of different wild flowers.
I love you Nana,
and thank you <3